Nearly Stuck in Her

Just thinking who really you are. Why you ever stuck here

I don't remember when I first met you till today you become part of me close enough. But, stick on my mind when you made me stared at you. It was bout two or three years ago. You're so marvellous. Just on mind you run, not falldown to heart. Limit on just amazed. Dunno why ? Maybe, since of my principes 'no relationship' 'no going steady' on my path. So, I ain't let you'll be mine before 'akadun nikah' spoken. No... not I was not brave to reveal my amazement to you. I just wanna keep what I have held. Being your secret admirer is plenty, even beatify for me :) .

Otherwise, you never feel what I feel to you :( .  It's okay :'). You have boyfriend and I just your admirer. No chance you'll be mine, and I don't regret my principe. So it's impossible to seize you. haha.. who am I ? you have been enjoy. Sometimes you tell me how romantic he is to you. I just smile, and try to be a good listener of you. It's enough for me. Looking your smile, laugh, and sometimes your childhood relieves me from feeling to having you.

Today, you're not you. Your smile is tasteless, flat. You never tell a story bout you and him again. Once, dunno! maybe you have hurt by him or something ? I ain't let me ask to you. I mean, as fast as you'll tell me what. Someday,  as I though before, kinda a sadness you tell what a break is. I was just sorry. I knew it's not a piece of cake for you. Hard. But, what I should do ? maybe you wished I could do more for you. But you're wrong. I can't.

I kinda a foolish. looks so silly in front of you. But till now, when you still nobody privy for you, I never assume you must be my girl. No.. I still hold principe. Eventhough you almost with me. It just on it, not more.  you, me are nothing. just artist with a fans maybe. 

Oh God, maybe I have fallen. I think, I have no pray for her will be mine, but I still wish be a part of her. Make her happy. 'But, but, but and many but'  today is war in my mind.

For couple. Just willing a sincere and truely wife who goes side me is a my major. Sincere, besides me to make an Islamic family and no stop to dakwah. No have a bored ta'lim. No have a laziness in fastabiqul khoirot. It means, you're not a chief criteria of me. Sorry. But I believe that impossible is nothing. Noone knows what next. What you get a hijab are ? even being a jilbaber ? up to be my dream wife? Dunno.

Everything is possible. :)